I am going to blend my WIAW post with a few recaps, because I don't have a lot of food pictures to show you guys. Don't worry, I'll make up for it next week! It will be food porn galore!
I will start with my appointment with my dietician last Friday that I realize I forgot to tell you about. My main concern going in was that I gained weight over Christmas, my clothes don't fit well right now and as a result, I haven't met the daily calorie goal that she had set for me. I wanted to ask her how I could get to the healthy and happy size that I was before Christmas without getting into a "weight loss" mentality and bringing back ED tendencies.
Well, I guess I should have seen it coming and I really couldn't argue with her answer. She said that there was no way I should even be thinking about my weight when I am still having disordered thoughts and not eating as much as I should be for my activity level. Really, I shouldn't have expected her to say anything different. There is no way that any health professional in their right mind would tell someone with an ED who is on the lower end of a healthy weight range that it was okay for them to try to lose weight.
I totally get it. By me "just trying to fit back into my jeans", I could send myself into a downward spiral, and after yesterday's post, you all know that I do NOT want to go in that direction. Instead of seeing how skinny I can get, I am going to see how strong I can get. I have already upped my intake a bit since that appointment and it's amazing what a different small increases can make.
Mentally, eating more is terrifying, but it is also far more delicious :) Not to mention the energy increases I have had! I used to feel like I had been hit by a truck after 15 minutes at the gym, but now I could go all day! Okay, maybe not ALL day...
Speaking of working out, I have also been working away at my planks and I have been setting new PRs left, right and centre! My latest time?
5 minutes and 41 seconds! Of course, my whole body was burning at that point, but it's a hell of a lot longer than I used to be able to plank! I'm thanking the extra food ;)
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Now, since Tuesday was my birthday, I'll give you a quick little WIAOMB (What I Ate On My Birthday) post.
I made a couple of delicious meals yesterday. They weren't anything fancy, but they were exactly what I was craving. I started the morning with carrot cake oats topped with a scoop of Cinnamon Raisin Swirl peanut butter.
I can't even describe to you how good this combination was. I took carrot cake and made it even carrot-cakier! That's a word, right?
For lunch, I wasn't really feeling vegetables. Actually, my fridge was pretty bare, so I didn't have much of an option, but I was craving something sweet. Enter apple pie omelette.
I microwaved finely-chopped apples with cinnamon and ground ginger, mixed them with egg whites, vanilla and more cinnamon and then [over]cooked (oops!) the whole thing in a pan. Then I topped it with thinned peanut flour, natural almond butter and more cinnamon. Delish :)
I didn't take any pictures of dinner (I'm still self-conscious about snapping foodie pics at restaurants). My parents drove down to take me out for a birthday meal. We went to an amazing Indian place and we all got thalis with different curries. That is, after we devoured a plate of calamari...
The meal was amazing, I was so full I couldn't even finish plate. However, that didn't stop our server (who is a good friend of mine) from bringing me a piece of cake on the house and singing to me. It was cheesecake - which I actually don't like - but it was the thought that counted, and you better believe I ate it anyway! It was actually a pretty fine piece of cake :)
Of course, the indulgence didn't stop there. As per tradition in my house, my roommates had this waiting for me when I got home...
Yup! They are the best ever! I had a small piece because I was about to burst, but I wasn't about to turn down a cake so beautifully made with love. Hey, double the cake, double the fun! Besides, I turned 22 on the 22nd, so I had to have 2 of something else!
What do you eat on your birthday?
Is anyone else self-conscious about PDF (public displays of foodie-ness)?
